Salt

I am giving myself a few more days to get busy then I shall slow things down abit. Otherwise too much stress isn't that healthy either.

Went for the movie 'Salt' today. Quite interesting. The actions and complicity kept the heart racing. I mean, it's kinda worth watching on my personal thought. However, it wasn't a gd idea to have pop corn and drinks while watching a movie. Twice I had this urge to go to the loo but I just didn't wanna miss any part.

I am tired already. Will watch on my diet.

Long working hours

I think I have lost some weight. The clothes and watch are getting looser. This I attribute to the long working hours and irregular meal time. I am not complaining, coz I want to learn fast.

I have just got back from a 13-hour work and 13-hour interval of fasting. Again, I am not complaining. Indeed, I was not feeling hungry at all. Just being tired. The temperature in the room was so cold that I am catching a flu now.

I think the condition will get better when time passes by. I have to keep an optimistic mind.

A little at ease

After a few days of tension due to being not familiar with the environment, I am slowly adjusting myself to the current job. The feeling is definitely getting better as the work goes on and on.

I guess when I was too busy working, I could actually suppress the hunger desire to eat. Nowadays my lunch is equivalent to my dinner time. Which means I would be having a simple breakfast followed by a 10-hour later meal. I don't really feel that hungry probably because the aircon is so cool, it's ben raining for the past few days and that I have to travel up and down among three institutions.

I don't know how I could make it but I guess, by just sitting in the office and doing nothing, will probably cause more hunger than being busy. So , yes, I am expecting myself to lose some weight for the coming one month until some of the stuff settled, I would venture out more to explore the other side of the city.

In the meantime, I need more rest in the evening.

Nite nite.

The journey has begun

A very short entry.

The new journey has begun. Though it was more like an overview, there is little motivation left. Perhaps this is just a beginning. Should be looking forward to learn more soon.

How much you know about cancers?

Mum called today, saying aunty Wangsa's daughter in-law is diagnosed with breast cancer recently. She has undergone mastectomy and is planned for chemo and radiotherapy soon. She is only 31 years old and has two little girls. She is a little hesitant to undergo chemo as the ordeal is a tough one. However, I am sure she will go for it as this is for her own interest.

That reminds me of Mani. She was one of my clients who was diagnosed with breast cancer during her last pregnancy. By the way her only child was born prematurely after being diagnosed with breast cancer but the baby is doing fine now. I saw her again last week before I left. I could recognize her but she looked different, without the eyebrows.

She was a little embarassed at first, as the chemotherapy that she underwent had caused her tremendous hair loss. But I was so glad to have seen her again before I left. No body knew what happened to her after she left for further treatment in another city, thus this acquaintance has cleared some doubts. I am glad she is doing fine now.

Breast cancer and cervical cancer are number 1 and 2 killer of cancers respectively in women worldwide. The good thing is that, screening tools are available nationwide. Breast self exam and pap smear for early detection of breast cancer and cervical cancer respectively save alot of lives. That is really true. I have to admit that the awareness is there but the effort is a little shortcoming.

Most of the time, when the symptoms presented, that would be the late stage which is incurable. That is why, early detection is very important since these screening tools are free. Nowadays, cancers have been occuring more in young adults. That is a worrying sign. What is actually happening? Perhaps our lifestyles have to do with it.

Okie dokie. I better go sleep abit.

Orientation Day2

The orientation has gone into Day 2 which is a lil time consuming and less productive. Something which could be done in one day had to be stretched to a few days, which is so not necessary. While I have to juggle between the orientation and moving into a new apartment, I find myself exhausted at the end of the day. Thanks to the rain, the weather is more chilled now.

Speaking of the weather, it is predictable. Scorching hot sun during the day time and heavy rain the evening, I wonder if this would affect the health.

The orientation was so funny. I had to joined a bunch of super juniors who haven't even started working yet, and we were like moving around the whole building. Why I said it's not necessary for seniors like us, simply because when we arrived, the facilitators would assume we knew everything and for the sake of formality, we had to listen what they have got to say to the juniors. But I am glad the staff were treating us like seniors.

About the apartment, the water heater installation took the second day to complete and now the aircon installation had to be halted simply because the missing parts of the aircon and the management wasn't happy with the installation. I have no idea what happened between the technician and the management but when I arrived home, I was in total darkness.

I am glad everything's solved now but before everything is properly installed, I will still remain skeptical with their job coz everything should be done yesterday. Now it had stretched to the third day, and I really need to clean the house, people! Everytime they came and installed something, I had to clean again and again. So exhausted already.

Ok, that's all for now. Stay tuned.

New city

Yet another long absence. The transition moving between two diferent places was taking alot of time. And yes, with much regret, I wasn't able to talk much on the recent move to this new and expensive city.

Everything was in a rush. Finally, I have moved to a new apartment. Kinda cozy but the moving and cleaning part is still on going and I tell you, it's not fun! I am not autistic, but I am definitely not a fan of moving without preparation, what more if it's for good.

A new place with new colleagues. Am I prepared? I am not sure. But being more in a specialized unit, I am sure it's much better because the area is more focused now. And having so many colleagues and bosses working together, geee...would that be fun?

The first day I went for reporting, I received lotsa curious stares. They must be wondering who is this new kid on the block. Though I don't appreciate how they literally stared or pretended to stay around to listen to my conversation, I am looking forward to meet more people.

Having said that, I am feeling a sudden culture shock. Even though I was there for my successor when overcoming her culture shock recently, I find myself to experience one now. I reckon that my previous job did not allow time for me to experience culture shock even though the surrounding was totally different from my hometown. I had to work right after I arrived and since, I had no time to catch breaths in between as work consumed most of the time.

There are 2 possibilities. Either I have caught the culture-shock bug from the successor or, in fact the memory immunity towards culture shock has been erased from the system. Thus, I am reliving the experience even though I was exposed previously. Ahaha... so scientific. I am sure I'll be fine. Tomorrow there will be an orientation at the new work place.

More updates later.

Dinner with the stars

The farewell row has started. The ball is rolling. Yet, I don't feel that I am quite ready to leave. Not even the work part, but emotionally, I am not prepared for a change yet. The night is long. We are travelling till the top of the hill, to find us submerged into a quiet and relaxing opened restaurant.

The stars in the sky are extremely brilliant tonight, blanketing every corner of the sight. A sense of uncertainty suddenly cropped up. Probably the fact that I have to work till this very second has put the moving on hold. The fact that the boss says "you are leaving behind a legacy here" keeps me wondering have I done enough for the people. The fact that I am leaving for another field which is quite new and unfamiliar causing a lil' of insecurity.

I have no idea, but I don't feel like speaking. I am tired. The common three words uttered. But yes, I am literally drained. A friend says that it sounds fun. But working, training the newbie, planning the moving off, a meeting and presentation tomorrow have literally turned the button off.

Probably I need sometime off before I could clear my thoughts and slowly putting things down. I have so much in mind but have no idea which to tend to at the moment. News has spread further than I expected. I have nothing to hide but I am not in the mood of speaking about the departure yet. I still feel there are so much more to do.

We didn't finish our pizzas and lasagna. The food proved to be too much for a table of seven. There is going to be a lil party organized by the youth club tomorrow afternoon. I can't imagine what's going to happen next week. It's gonna be a tough bid of farewell.

The newbie!

Finally, the newbie has arrived. She arrived a few days ahead of the expected time. Indeed, she came in time of handy. Now I could do the passing over, and then concentrate on the moving. I find that the encounter was an easy and friendly one. Though I had not the priviledge of guidance from the predecessor as I was put in charged when the position was long time vacant, I had to literally build from scratches.

Now she has all the priviledges from settling down herself cozily in her new position as well as the basic necessity prepared for her. Even the assistant felt that the transition was so smooth today despite the hectic morning. Well, I was also surprised that I had so much patient to teach and explain what's expected of her.

She already felt the tense in her forehead but not wanting her to squeeze her brain through day 1, non-chalantly I assured her that everything's gonna be fine. Probably she still finds comfort and security in my presence, sooner or later, she has to face the stress herself. But that's not the point. The system now lies in her hands.

While on the other hand, I shall find myself facing a new challenge. And yes, what I had faced in the past shall be a lesson in the future.

Poor souls

The week was generally chill. Besides working, I had spent quite alot of time hanging out with friends and going for a few computer games. I am not a particular fan but once I booked into it, I got hooked. So to say.

There are two instances which are quite disturbing lately. One instance was a case of a mother who buried her child after delivering him in the toilet. She is not a single parent nor was this her first pregnancy. She hid her pregnancy for a long time and claiming she was fat. That disguise didn't ring any bells to the husband as well.

So, she just made it on time to go back her hometown to avoid all her neighbours who were nosy about her. The delivery didn't go well, and to cut the story short, she went for help. She was then brought to the hospital and she claimed suddenly she got a gushed of blood flowing down her private and a cord was tagged in between. Still she denied there was any baby.

For any sane human, who would have believed her. She escaped this time thinking it was a miscarriage. But sooner later, the baby was discovered buried under the soil near the toilet. The police was alerted and the husband couldn't contain anymore such nuisance.

He broke down, confessing, this might not be the first time she did so. He now realized what she did the same previous time when she came back with the same story. Now, she's in court, pending investigation. The husband is leaving her.

Lately I was shocked to find out that there was a death of a young mother. She was in her early pregnancy and she was just 19 years old. The fact that she was not married and had a 4-year-old child sent controversies everywhere regarding her marital status. She experienced a complicated abortion and the infection had caused her, her life.

Rumours starting to crop up saying she was a victim of sexual abuse by her step father. Not the first time, and the previous child might be his work too. She confided in her mother, ending being blamed for telling lies, etc. Her funeral was said to be a simple one, and nobody even cared to lay a tear by her tomb.

The neighbours knew about her ordeal but dared not to voice out because afraid of prosecution. Now, the stepfather is a free-man, I wonder if there's any guilt in the mother. But I heard not. How could a mother not listen and believe her own child but a man who barely knows her for a few years?

I am saddened by these cases because mothers are supposed to be protective of their young ones. We have been celebrating Mother's day, and most of the time mothers are the ones getting the most credits commercially. While we singing praises for the motherly love expressed to the world, I am dumbfounded that there are cases where mothers would even kill their young ones.

Perhaps we should start listening to our young ones. May their souls rest in peace.