Knock on Heaven's DooR

When I looked into his old frail eyes, I couldn't help but thinking how long more the clock was gonna tick by. Perhaps, it's just minutes away. I was speechless while gazing at him gasping for his breath as if every breath was his last. I knew it was so wrong to think otherwise.

I started asking, what's playing in his mind. What would he be thinking at the very last second of his breath. Family, life, sins or simply comfort away from pain. Last evening, the daughter was having teary eyes and the wife almost cried looking at him. They kept asking how long would he be alive. Who would know but HIM. The anticipation of sending a loved one away was horrendous. What more the stress that he had to go through in anticipating his own departure.


Looking at him gave me another boost to appreciate life. Last week, the egoistic uncle that I mentioned earlier had passed on. I saw him well, I saw him sick, I saw him recovered, and I saw him went downhill but I never saw him leaving. His look is still so freshly played in my mind. I still could remember the feeling of his coarse hands, the look of his handsomely combed hair and his funny egoistic nature.

I don't think I am being sentimental but I certainly feel that I am growing to be more humane. I learnt so much through life. And I do believe each of us does. It's just how we interpret our experience through our journey of life differently.



I came across this song called "Knocking on heaven's door". Find it very simple yet meaningful. I felt it so much so that I had goosebumps everytime I listened. Knock, knock, knock on heaven's door..