Being emotional

Maybe I am simply tired and exhausted for the day. Work and meeting. This is gonna be an emotional entry. Sometimes it really felt sad. Sometimes you think you work so hard and yet you don't get the same opportunity like those who don't seem to deserve. And this is not something new. I sit here and ponder upon the dimming blue sky outside. Am I missing on something?

I was always very vocal during a meeting especially things dealing with my work. I made sure I did some homework before going to the meeting and raised whatever matters that I deem need improvement. But at times it left me speechless. It's kinda obvious that some parties who are sitting right above don't know what's actually going on at ground level. I guess that's the problem. When you don't go to the ground and understand their job, you won't understand the procedure. What you see is the result. And the results don't actually appear right in front just like that.

I am just tired. You won't see changes you are making now. You would see it in the coming generations. That's the only consolation I got from the other dept bosses. But who cares. I don't care. Or do I? I am becoming so undecisive now. Looking at other colleagues who just gone right up without much effort, and of course, I can't be complaining much. I don't recognize skin colour but I can't stop others from selecting their favourite colours.

The boss has left and now we are basically the headless chicken, ahahah. But I have always functioned independently. So no qualms. But the staff is another headache. Anyways, I am not gonna blab too long. I am tired again and again. Maybe it's my turn tomorrow. But I shall never simply give up.

I am so waiting for my holiday and shall hear some news soon. Until then, enjoy the evening.

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