Well, I am back as promised. The 3-hour journey home wasn't an easy one. I was having motion sickness all the way and I guess the inadequate sleeping time for the past few days had made it worse.
Anyways. Although the mood was elated this morning, it had changed its direction when I stepped out of the course building. I know i know. I was complaining of not wanting to go travel in this month, but I have learnt so much and got to know so many acquaintance in such a short time. The building had housed us for the past 5 days and I had spent these 5 days with a group of wonderful people from a very different background.
Though sleeping in a dorm, yes, a huge dorm, going to bed at 12am and waking up at 430am in the morning repeatedly, we had come so close that there was no more barrier in speaking out our minds. I felt so priviledged to have a wonderful time but no, I have no pictures to show coz I didn't take any. Perhaps I should let the memories fade away with time coz yearning for this moment can be torturing. Yes, I know this feeling is temporary after getting back to the routine lifestyle with the routine people I meet everyday.
So now, it's a transition. I have come to a conclusion that meeting and departing is not an easy thing though it will happen off and on in our lives. The only thing left is the memories. Perhaps I have put too much feelings or emotions with this group of people. And I know this is the first and perhaps the last time we gonna meet although we had exchanged contacts. The truth is, we all are busy with our lives. I've learnt to put things down slowly and learnt to accept it.
I could see Mr.Yini, our facilitator was so much attached to us even only with us for 2 whole days. He was really supportive. What about us who had spent 5 days together sharing our thoughts, working together, trekking together, learning together, singing together and eating together. We were so supportive of each other. We worked so well to accomplish our assigned challenges and we were so excited celebrating on our double victory yesterday. Perhaps, that's what lacking in my life. Emotional support!
My eyes are so heavy now. The mood has not much improved. Perhaps it's not a better night to write a lot. The chinese proverb says: Life is not about OWNING the moment FOREVER, but to have EXPERIENCED the moment that counts. I shall unload this feeling before going to bed tonight as tomorrow has still alot to do.
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